why do i care?

Why do i care? why do i wish the truth was out? why am i still hung up on all this? They dont care, and havent cared in a long time, if ever about us or our family so why do i all the sudden feel this deep seeded need for them to like me now? I dont care. it will not better not worsen my life to have them apart of it. It will not make me a better person by having them around. It will most likely reduce alot of stress and drama to have them not. I will miss teh kids, that i will. But if their parents are that stupid then, it can not be helped. I wish for cathy to find a way to get past what happened, and perhaps someday give us another chance. I wish for bob n liz to stop betraying her and tell the truth reguardless of the outcome. I will not hold my breath. But what i will try to do and want to do and need help in doing is letting go. If they dont feel the need to fight to be apart of our lives, why should i fight to be a part of theirs? they had nothing to do with us and wanted so little to do with us for a very long time. why now does it bother me? they ahve lied over and over before why now do i care? please Lord help me release, help me let go. I place it in your hands now Lord. You know the truth and if you see fit you will bestow it upon whomever needs it. Thank you Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen